Feeling alone

Hello everybody,

So, as you can tell today's blog is not going to be a happy cheery blog.

Okay, So I don't know who I can trust anymore. I feel trapped and locked away from everyone.
I'm not well at the moment and havn't been since november. Everyone thinks my life is a breeze. Come into school, Get good grades ext... BUT nobody knows the real me.

I study like crazy to get my grades, I don't sleep at night and hallucinate ( don't know why), I get angry so easily and I have anxiety. AND to top it all of I be sick, I don't know why either. I'm going to the doctors tomorrow anyway to see if they can sort me out (:

I mean, I have friends. But I zone out.
I feel like everyone hates me. My friends and teachers, especially my maths teacher.

Any advice? I'm so agitated rn ):

Thanks for reading xox