Boys and Toys

Hello everybody.

You know that boy I kissed?

Yeah, we broke up.

I dumped him, which is abnormal seeing as I am normally the one that gets dumped. HAHA.

I've been thinking about breaking up with him for a while. I mean, I am being sick, 24/7. School is making me anxious& I am scared to be me, when I am around anyone.

I told my Bestfriend on Friday&we went to one of our teachers, our dance teacher. She is more like a friend or a sister that a teacher. I can talked and have a laugh. It is fabulous. We go to dance class so we have got to know her there&It was really good, to get to know somebody that is funny and elder than us, but is really young at the same time.

We went to her and asked 'How do you break up with somebody?' She said to write him a note, it was hilarious what she was telling us though. She gave us 2 post it notes, but I chickened out and didn't write any of them.

On Friday night I slept round my friends, so we quickly went to my house to pick up my things. So I could avoid kissing him and then as we were walking to my friends he was there walking down the hill from school, still. AND GUESS WHAT? He tried too 'passionately' kiss me. I just went in for a peck, not a ndfvbsabviwb kiss. And it was so awkward, everyone was there.

I felt so embarrassed for him, he planned it with all of his mates though and to be honest, i dont really want someone that tells his mates everything he is going to do between a relationship that involves 2 people not 200. haha.

Anyway later that day I broke up with him. Over text. I mean how horrible is that, I feel so ashamed.

But then, 12 hours later he was up town with another girl.. HELLOO, I've got treated like a toy.
Now I don't feel so bad about dumping him over text.

He tried to eat my face, goes out with other girls seconds after I dump him, is so annoying with his stupid songs that he sings and make sexual comments, I'm sorry, no. I am 15 not 25. Life doesn't go like that, bby. URGG I feel so used and embarrassed. He told me he loved me, I don't even know what love is.
Thanks for listening/reading my rant about this!

Thanks for reading xox